apple store fun!

Spencer was freaked out by this picture and grabbed his cheeks! haha

graditude

I just wanted to get some thoughts down that have been close to my heart lately. I have touched on this before, but working as a social worker in the emergency department at a large hospital I definitely see a large portion of our community that is not well emotionally, mentally, spiritually and physically. The sadness and trauma that I have seen have made me so grateful for the things I have and the things I don't have to worry about. I have felt that I have done a decent job (that should be my indicator that I need to be doing more) of being grateful to our Heavenly Father for the blessings I have been given that I definitely do not deserve.

I am grateful for a wonderful husband that wouldn't even think of abusing me or Spencer, or anyone for that matter, in any way. I am grateful that I have not had a loved one die or be injured in a traumatic way. I am grateful that I don't have to try to decipher what external or internal stimuli is reality and what is a byproduct of my mental illness. I am grateful that I am not sunk down in the depths of despair and sadness. I am grateful that I don't have to battle thoughts of suicide or harbor intense feelings of anger towards others. I am grateful that I don't have to go to homeless shelters or try to brave the weather on the streets. I am grateful for my support system and how kind and generous others are towards me. This just scratches the surface of what I am grateful for, but you get the general idea.

And then the other day I was humbled again by watching the 5:00 news with Spencer. They showed scenes in Africa right now of people who all I can think really know what it is to suffer in every way. They showed starved people in long lines to get food and a spot to sleep in a makeshift tent. People without that basic tier of human needs of shelter, food and safety. Then they showed a baby/toddler lying on the dirt ground, staring into space, obviously malnourished just covered in flies. Spencer immediately looked up to me with eyes full of tears and said, "Mamae, that baby has bugs all over him." Needless to say, seeing that child that way was heartbreaking enough but then to have my sweet little boy recognize and bluntly state the inhumanity in the world really has made me think a great deal.

What do I do with what I have been blessed with? I am sad to admit that it is very little. I know I need to be a better steward of my blessings and the resources the Lord has provided me, with the trust that I would be a good and wise servant and use them for good. I wonder how sad it must be for the Lord to watch his children, especially the little kiddos, suffer in this world. It also must be so hard for him to watch those who have received so much more squandor it away with little good to show for it. I want to be a better servant. I want to give more of what I have to those who are so much less fortunate than me. I want to show more compassion and love to not only those in remote places but to those in my community. And hopefully by this expression, I will be held to a greater accountability to actually follow through on these things. Unfortunately, I need those reminders to jolt me out of my comfort zone and look outside of myself. Let's all be a little better and more giving and compassionate to those that are just as loved by the Lord as we are.

Hair cut photo shoot

Okay, I realize that these photos pretty much look the same, but I couldn't pick a favorite so you get to enjoy them all!! =)

I think he is just the cutest thing EVER!!

Gma and Gpa visiting

Jean took my parents up to Squaw Peak to see the valley the other night (while I was at work...sad for me!)

We did the Bean Museum which Spencer loved!

Even if he was a little nervous around the bears

He even got to volunteer as a turtle!

With his "croci-gator" (according to him)

Spencer got to play with Grandpa's stethoscope

Air Force Museum

We had Cherilyn last weekend too but didn't get pics, will have to make up for that! She went through the temple and we were so glad to go with her. More to come!

Lately...

Spencer's first movie at the theaters since he was an infant. We took him to see cars and he LOVED it! We had tried to take him to another movie a few weeks ago, but we were late and the previews were blaring and it was dark and he REFUSED to even go in. This was a much better experience!!

He loves this hat but only gets to really wear it in the house and car. This is his pained expression of me taking another photo...

Or he tries to turn away completely...

Up in the mountains the other day...too bad the photos don't do the scenery justice. We will have to go back when there is better daylight for pictures! Hope you are having a good July!!

Lehi Rodeo

So last night we went to the rodeo. I was sure that Spencer would love the horses and cows/bulls, which he did. But his favorite part was the motorcross show in the middle. He LOVED watching the two guys jump high in the air, do flips and ride around the arena. He even got so excited he was throwing his arms into the air! Pretty cute.

I got seats right next to the roping which was also fun for Spencer (he was pretty much eye to eye with the horses), until I realized that he was distracting the team roping horses by waving his flag at them...oops. Hopefully it didn't hurt any scores....

Happy Birthday and Father's day!

Jean, we think you are the greatest and we love you!! Seriously, I have always known how blessed I am to have Jean in my life, but with my new job I am more aware of and grateful for what a blessing he really is. Since I have been working with people with such acute sadness, or who are in these crazy and awful situations that I would never wish upon anyone, I really am daily grateful for what I have and for what I don't have. I really don't deserve to be so richly blessed and saying that my cup runneth over hardly does justice. Jean, hopefully I can be as good for you as you are for me, happy birthday and father's day and know that I love you always.

poor unsuspecting child...

Poor Spencer just thinks he is posing for a picture, little does he know his dad is about to poke his sides. Welcome to his life!

And I just think he is cute sitting with his legs crossed putting his cars on his "parking lot".

recent trip to Vegas, Arizona and El Paso

So this post isn't in chronological order, which bugs, but I don't want to spend the time to learn how to upload in order...While in AZ, Leticia's friends, Neide and David, invited us over for a BBQ. Their family is so nice and we had a lot of fun. Spencer loved playing with all the kiddos too.

Priscila, Leticia, David, Nath and I

Spencer, Jean, Milton, Martin and Mahonri

Leticia, Priscila, Nath, Neide and I

Enjoying the helicopter and tanks at Ft. Bliss' museum

Loving Grandma and Grandpa's pool

He is so stinkin cute in those swim diapers

Spencer never quite decided how he felt about being in the pool

Of course, the Bellagio in Vegas

We also went to the Vegas airport to watch the planes come and go but we also got to see about 8 helicopters take off to tour the Grand Canyon. Spencer was in heaven!!

Spencer loves to feed ducks so we found this cool park in Vegas and saw a mama duck with like 16 little ducklings. so.cute.

We had a great trip and loved visiting so many family and friends!!!

Hoarding...

Or maybe stealing, but either way, bad behavior for a two year old. Apparantly, Spencer was shoving any and as many matchbox cars into his cargo pants pockets as he could at nursery today and put up a huge fight if anyone tried to take them out. So when Jean went to pick him up his pockets were loaded and Jean had a heck of a time getting the cars out to be left in nursery. I know we don't pay people for the service they provide in the LDS church, but I do feel nursery leaders should get paid. =) Hopefully Spencer wasn't too much of a pill today, we are really grateful for the nursery leaders!!!

Wishing everyone a...

"happy burpday" as it is known to Spencer, or "happy birthday" as it is more commonly known to the rest of the world. Since he heard us wishing our nieces happy birthdays the other day, that has now become his common expression. I sure love being wished a happy burpday on an hourly basis!! =)